I don’t want to find love. I want love to find me.

   Lately I’ve been starting to notice that nearly all of my friends are currently ‘in a relationship’, and that’s great. They’re all happy, and I’m glad that they have someone special in their lives. Most of the couples that I’m friends with are really cute together and they’re perfect for each other, and again, I’m not complaining about it, I think it’s great and I’m happy for them. But..in my own personal opinion (and you don’t have to agree with me..) I don’t find high school relationships all that romantic.

     I’m sure a lot of these couples have found love, and who knows…they might have already found the one that God has chosen for them to spend the rest of their life with, and I’m sure to them it’s really romantic, and that’s amazing! If that’s what they want, and that’s what they have, then kudos to them, that’s incredible, but that’s not at all what I want for my love life. I don’t want to go looking for love, I don’t think that’s romantic in the slightest…..”oh, I want a boyfriend, which one of these guys can I date?”……”Oh, that guy is single, I’m going to try to get him to like me.”…..”Well, my relationship with that boy didn’t work out, let me see if I can find another single guy that I can fall for.”…Where’s the romance in that? Where’s the mystery? The excitement, the unknown, the waiting? What about those situations is special?

     I’m 18 years old. Yes, plenty old enough to be making serious decisions about relationships and dating. But I’m not seeking to find a boyfriend. You may think that I’m crazy, and that I need to get my head out of the clouds and stop watching so many old Disney movies about princes and princesses falling in love, but I know what I want in my future husband, and I have full faith that God has my perfect man in mind. I’m not going to go searching for him. I’m only 18, I have my whole life ahead of me.

     I’m not gonna lie, I sometimes want to hurry up and meet this amazing guy that God has for me. I often think about all of my friends that do have a boyfriend, and honestly sometimes I do get a little jealous. It’s very lonely knowing that they all have someone who cares for them, and they just have to pick up their phone or send them a quick text and they have someone there to listen to them and to be there for them any hour of the day. But at the end of the day, I don’t mind waiting. God knows when I’ll meet the man he has picked out for me, I don’t know if that means tomorrow, next month, next year or ten years from now. I don’t know when this guy is going to come into my life but until then, I don’t want to go looking for love. I want love to find me. (:

(I was listening to my “Tangled” soundtrack today, and this post was inspired by this song, here’s the video…enjoy!)